Ang Loka-Lokang Ako~!!!

Oo masyado akong pa-CUTE... Eh kasalanan ko ba yun? CUTE naman talaga ako diba? Di lang basta-bastang cute! Maganda pa! (nalipad ba kayo ng hangin? Ang yabang lang eh -_-").  Pinanganak akong ganito. Makulit, may sayad at may pagkaloka-loka. I laugh at my own mistake. Biglang kakausapin ang sarili and do weird stuff. Oo alam ko ang weird ko. Ganyan talaga ako eh. WEIRDONG TAO ^___^

REYNA NG KATANGAHAN

Ako na ang REYNA NG KATANGAHAN!!!

May mahal na nga diba?! Actually may syota na!

Ba't ba di ko matanggap? I'm nothing to him...

Isa lang naman akong masamang panaginip sa kanya.

I ruined our friendship. Ang TANGA ko!

Ba't ko ba kasi nasabing mahal ko siya?! 

Nasa huli nga talaga ang PAGSISISI!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Trip ko lang magpost walang aangal.... -_-

"Summer"

~The warmest season of the year has come~

Summer had started one month ago.. And it's sooo damn boring.. I've got nothing to do... Writing stories are also boring.. Imagining such unbelievable things. 

"Maybe"

My cold heart....suddenly a little bit

seems melted when you come to me

And then secretly..you filled my heart

From one day, at the way back home

While thinking of you, that my appearance

when I saw, I realize you're already in my heart

Maybe you're the one, Maybe, perhaps

Perhaps, you, I'm waiting.. it would be half

Maybe it is true, Always, very

Closed each other, So I didn't know

Baby I'm in love with you

At first I didn't know...I'd be like that

I'd be thinking of you, I'd be loving you

Your heart too, please...be same with my heart like this

Maybe you're the one, Maybe, perhaps

Perhaps, you, I'm waiting.. it would be half

Maybe it is true, Always, very

Closed each other, So I didn't know

Baby I'm in love with you

I have gotten too late

Right now, accept my heart that realize

I knew it's too late, I knew it's now but

This heart ..will be never swayed

Maybe you're the one, Maybe, perhaps

Perhaps, you, I'm waiting.. it would be half

Maybe it is true, Always, very

Closed each other, So I didn't know

Baby I'm in love with you

Baby, I'm in love with you

Baby, I'm in love with you

Baby, I'm in love with you

Baby, I'm in love with you

You Know 

“Storm"

Stop talking

I hate myself for knowing everything
Before you even opened your mouth

I wanted to lie and run away but
Your two eyes are telling me goodbye

I finally set my heart to leave
And it came to me like a harsh storm
It might be a fate that will wash away like the rain
Because it was more painful than a fate shattered like glass
At the end of this walk, I let you know but you wouldn’t know

Stop crying
I hate myself for knowing everything
before I get wet with your tears

I tried to lie and avoid it but
your two eyes are telling me goodbye

I finally set my heart to leave
And it came to me like a harsh storm
It might be a fate that will wash away like the rain, 

I was sick with a love fever, 

The meaning of these tears trickling 

to my dried lips- you’ll never know

Don’t try too hard to get far away
My body has already broken into pieces just like you wanted
I can’t go a step closer to you

I finally set my heart to leave
And it came to me like a harsh storm
It might be a fate that will wash away like the rain
Because it was more painful than a fate shattered like glass
At the end of this walk, I let you know but you wouldn’t know

I was sick with a love fever

The meaning of these tears trickling 

to my dried lips- you’ll never know

"Best Friends" (We are One)

"Nijah and Me" (Coolest Best Friend)

~At the Alabel Gymnasium, during the Graduation of Fourth year students in 

Alabel National Science High School~

"Cezara and Me" (Sweetest Best Friend)

~At the KCC Convention, during the Parents Tribute of the Grade 6 students from 

SPED Integrated School~

"Lovely and Me" (Funniest Best Friend)

~At the KCC Convention, during the Parents Tribute of the Grade 6 students from 

SPED Integrated School~

"The Weird Him" (It's him)

~His smile that made my heart skip a beat~

~His face when he's sleeping is like an angel from above ~

~At times, when he become serious and all quiet~

“Because I’m a Girl” (Heart Broken)

Have you ever felt of being dumped by the guy you love most? Or being in pain because of him? Well if you’ll ask me, yes I already felt that. It’s so painful than I thought it would be. Everything happened in my sophomore life.

“Not doing your projects again?” I asked Mark as I walked nearer his desk. “I don’t want to do it.. It’s just a waste of time,” he said leaning his chin on his desk. “Get a hold of yourself, lots,” I said as slapped his shoulder. I call him lots because of his curly hair. “But-But,” he said teary-eyed. “It’s really tiring even just thinking of it!” he shouted desperately. “Okay, I’ll try and make it for you,” I said cupping my cheeks. “Really?” he asked as he gets hold of my shoulder. He’s smiling like crazy. “Yeah~” I said looking at the opposite direction, annoyed. “You’re the best~” he said as he hugs me. “I’ll go play then,” he said happily then he left. “Idiot, why did you say that again?” I told myself staring at him. “You really do like him,” Rizza said as she sat beside me sipping some juice. “I don’t like him!” I denied as I stood up, blushing. “Oh! Look your face is sooo red…” she teased. “It’s not!” I denied again. “You’re not good at pretending, Aiv..” Rexa said as she and Kyle seated beside Rizza. “We’re your friends, you can trust us, okay?” she added while they were grinning. “Haa~ I really can’t lie to you guys..” I said as I sat down back to the chair in front of them. “I do like him,” I said nodding. “GOSH! This is so embarrassing~” I added covering my face. “Pfft,” they said then they burst out laughing. “I thought you’re a tomboy like me and Kyle~ so why did you fell in love with a guy~?” Rizza said in between laughs. “I thought you don’t know what love is..” Rexa said giggling. “I shouldn’t have told you,” I said frowning. “You’re just making fun of me~” I added with my blowfish face. “So…” they said as they stopped laughing. The atmosphere became serious again. “It’s already September..When did you start falling in love with him?” Kyle asked. “Last week, I guess,” I said while nodding. “L-L-Last week?!!” the three of them with their shocked looks. “Yeah” I said then the bell ranged. “It’s already dismissal time,” Rizza said as the four of us glanced outside. “We’ll talk about it tomorrow,” Rexa said as they stood up. “Yeah” Kyle added. “Better tell us every detail got it?” Rizza said. Then we went home.

“I can’t believe I’m going to tell them every bit of detail,” I told myself while walking in the hallway, nodding. Then suddenly I bumped into something or someone. “Sorry,” I said as I raised my head, while touching my forehead. “Oh! Pangit it’s you~” he said pointing me with my sudden annoyed look. “What a bad timing,” I mumbled as I walked passed him, annoyed. “Hey wait~” he said as he grabbed my wrist. “Eh?” I said as I turned to him. “Are you done with my project?” he asked. “Yeah” I said as I nodded. “Is that all?” I asked. “Are you mad?” he asked, confused. “Nope,” I said as I freed my wrist from his grip.”I’ll be going now,” I said as I left him.

“This is so crazy,” I mumbled while panting. “Oh the victim is here,” a familiar voice said. “Victim?” I said as  I raised my head. “F-F-F4,” I added. “Remember every bit of detail,” they said glaring at me. “I got it, ” I said as I walked passed them heading to my chair. “I’ll tell you EVERYTHING; you don’t have to make those scary faces,” I said as I placed my bag beside my chair then I sat down. “Then at lunch break,” Rexa said then they went back to their chairs. After that, the class had started. At lunch, of course I told them everything.  Then the bell rang for the next subject, Biology.

“The teacher told me that she have some urgent things to do so we’ll go and clean up our garden, leaders please take responsibility of your group mates,” our president said then everyone went out of the room with their group mates. Gladly, Rizza and Kyle are my group mates so we went out together. “At least, I’s Friday, so we can change our clothes,” Rizza said as we started cleaning our spot. “Yeah~” I said. It took us 2 hours to clean it properly. “I think, I’ll go change my clothes now, I’m so sweaty,” I said pulling the collar part of my shirt. “Yeah me too~” Rizza said raising her hand. “Be back okay?” our leader said as we left.

“That was tiring,” I said wiping my sweats on my forehead. “Yeah,” Rizza said as we entered the classroom. Unexpectedly, he was there. He was just done changing his clothes. I walked to my desk and grab my shirt. Then I went in the restroom. After changing, I went out and saw him putting powder on his body then to his face. “You look like a girl,” I said as I stared at him while he was wiping his face. “Oh~ Mark you look like a white lady,” Rizza said as she pointed Mark’s face, giggling. “Eh~really?” he said. “Huh” I sighed. “On your cheeks,” I said then he started wiping his cheeks. “How about that?” he asked. “You still look like a ghost,” I teased. “Help me then,” he said, and then I walked near him. “Really, I’m not your maid or your mother,” I said. “Here,” he said as he handed over his shirt. I then grab it and started wiping his face. That was the first time I went that close to his face. “He’s so handsome,” I thought while wiping his face. “Th-That’s enough,” I said as I throw to him his shirt, hitting his face as I walked away, blushing.

Months had passed since that day. I then started ignoring and avoiding him, I already know he have someone he loves so it’s no use. It’s almost our Christmas Party, we started preparing for it. “Okay, so we’ll clean up the room today,” our advisor said as everyone started cleaning. At recess we rested for a while. Then suddenly he walked near me. “Yo,” he said as he sat on the chair in front of me. “What do you want?” I asked as I stared at the opposite direction while munching some chips. “Nothing,” he said as he tilted he’s head while folding his arms in front of him. “I just miss talking to you,” he added leaning on his folded arms. “Whatever,” I said as I stood up. “Hey wait,” he said as he grabbed my wrist. “I already knew about it..” he said nodding. “Eh?” I said as turned to him. “That you like me,” he added as he stared at me with his serious look. I was so speechless that time. Then slowly, he stood up and grabbed my back. He then hugged me so tight. “I’m sorry,” he said. “I can’t love you back, but we can still be friends right?” he added as tears started to fall on my cheeks. That’s how my love story ended. It was a heart broken.

"Eternal Love" (Forever and Always)

HI! I’m Miyaki Yagami, a businesswoman of Okinawa, Japan. I just want to share to you one of my experiences about love. I was in the middle school that time; I had a crush on my boy best friend. He’s a joker a heartthrob, a kind and a sweet guy. His name is Kezuka Kurusaki. Although he is popular in our school, he still spends and enjoys his time with me. 

My parents were CEO in one of the most famous company in Japan. And because of their fame and wealth, my parents then are afraid that I’ll be marrying somebody that is not the same with our state of life. And so my parents made an arrangement with one of their partner that their son will and I will be married at the time we are to finish college. They never asked my opinion or my feelings about it. Still they insist and push through what they’d planned. A month after their talked, they then made a family get together so that all of us, specially the two of us, me and Usui Kasito, well met and know each other. I can’t say no that time and so I joined and force myself to be involved with the party. I’m not saying he’s not cute, he is indeed cute. Not just cute but handsome young man that every girl would dream of, but he couldn’t get my interest even if he did all the sweetness and gave me expensive gift. He couldn’t wake up any feeling in me. He’s just plainly a friend to me, nothing more nothing less. Nevertheless, we still were engaged. That’s not just that. The worst thing was that both of our parents suggested and insisted that Usui will transfer to my school for us to know each other and that Usui will be able to watch over me. Usui, fetched me up every day and drop me to our house. Thought at times, He’s hard to understand, still I managed to deal and be with him.

We’ve been classmates since middle school until high school. At that time, my friend Kezuka and I were already close with each other, closer than a friend but not couples. I enjoyed being with him than with Usui. So at times, I lied to Usui that we have group meeting with my Friends or anything that I could used as reason for me to take the time to spend it with Kezuka.I told Usui that during Mondays, Wednesdays and Fridays, I will not go home with him. Only Tuesdays and thursdays only. He also agreed because he too have circle of friends where they also have their own spree. Even if my time with Kezuka were short compared with what I have with Usui, those times made me happier. We dated anywhere and have fun with simple things. Even if we ate street foods and watched only scenes in the beach on a park and people there, I did treasure those things. I took all the time to make the best out of our time together with Kezuka. I never felt that happiness with Usui even if we ate in neither a five starred hotel nor visiting grand and beautiful place.

Everything went well until one day, Usui discovered the truth. He was angry at that time.“Usui snubbed me and he’s not fetching me since last week.” I told Kezuka while we ate our lunch that day. “But then,” I added. “I don’t care. It doesn’t matter with me anyway.” I said. “But you need to settle things to him Miyaki.” she said while looking at me. “He’ll be your future husband in the future so you need to fix matters to him anyway.”, he added while he continue eating his food. “Yeah, I know.” I said while I cut the fish into with my fork and spoon. “If I can only choose and decide. He’s not the one I’ll marry.” I said at that time I am already about to bite the fish on my fork. “I already have with me the guy I like.”, I just simply added the statement. Kezuka then scrambled to get a glass of water that time to clear the blocked throat he had. He accidentally swallows the fish that still never gnawed into pieces. I then helped him while laughing at him.“Whoa! You’ll pay with what you did later Miyaki.”, he said still drinking.“I just told you what’s the truth Kezuka.”, I said serious while I sit on my chair. He then slowly places the glass he’s holding on the table and took my hands and said, “Thank you Miyaki. How sweet of you.” then he kissed my hands and looked at my eyes for many minutes. I’m waiting for him to say the words, but then, “Let’s continue to eat our food so that we could still watch the program in the plaza.” he said and starts eating his food again.Dismayed I am because I didn’t heard what I wanted to hear, however, that makes me feel okay because I already did tell him what I have in my heart. We’d finish that spree that we have with so much fun.

One day in our school during break time, Usui grab my hands and pulled me to walked with him so that we could talked he said that time. He then took me at the inner part of the parking lot that few people only visit it. When we’re already in that area he then hold my head and kissed me torridly that it hurts my lips. That took us a long time before he’d let go of me. Both of us panting and breathing hard for air. “What are you doing Usui?” I angrily said to him. “Are you out of your mind already?” I added. “That’s what your punishment!” he shouted. “What?” I asked confused.“You don’t remember?” he asked still angry. “Huh!” he smirked. “You said you’re with your girl group but… but…” he said looking for a word to tell what the next line is. “But you’re with your guy! With Kezuka!” he added.“What are you thinking? He asked. “You already have a fiancée but you are going out with a guy?” he said. “He’s my friend, best friend, close friend so to speak, Usui.” I answered. “And even maybe he’s not. I would rather choose him than you. Remember, ours were arranged by our parents.” I remind him. He then grabs my two shoulders with his strong hands and carried me to the corner and again kissed me angrily. Even if I tried to free myself but because he’s bigger than me, I couldn’t. Even if I know Self defense, because of his sturdy body, it’s useless. After that he then let go of my lips and said, “If you won’t marry me you will still continue your relationship with Kezuka, then I don’t have any choice but to make you completely mine in whatever way. And I’ll do something bad to that Kezuka! He said angrily. “I’ll give you 3 weeks to decide Miyaki. 3 days! he stressed. He then let go of me then turned and walked away. I was distraught that time. Don’t know what to think first, my hurt lips or Usui’s statement. I don’t know what to do at that time. The only thing that I did was to cry. Cried because I need to decide and I knew that I don’t like what will be the outcome of my choice afterwards. It’s because I knew then that I need to choose him, Usui, not Kezuka. That hurts me a lot.

Three days passed and I still don’t want to think my answer to what Usui asked. That made me sad. That time I and Kezuka were at the beach watching birds fly and glide above the waters. I never knew then that Kezuka is watching me and saw there the burden that I have. “What’s the problem Miyaki?” he asked while he made me face him. I couldn’t look at his face that time because if I do, I know I’ll burst out and will cry. But Kezuka, really feels that he needs to know what’s with me and so he lifted my face with her fingers. He slowly lifts it up ’til he could see my teary eyes. Then I cried hard after that. He then hugs me tight and comforted me. He never let a word from his mouth. He just let me cry and pour out what I need to decant that time. It took me minutes to calm myself but still he just hugs me and let me cry out.

After the time I am finish pouring out the burdens within me, that’s when the time I told him what Usui did at the parking lot. I told him everything in between the sobs even the ultimatum Usui said. He then embrace me again and while he ‘s touching my hair he whispered to my ears saying, “Even if you will be with him starting today, my love for you won’t fade away Miyaki.” Then he kissed my forehead, down to my nose then to my lips. He kissed me passionately as if it’s the end of the world. And I did enjoy that. Because I already know that my love to him has also an answer. That he loves me also, that the feeling is mutual. He did treasure that time, everything that happened that time. It was Kezuka who stopped the kissed that we had shared. And one more time he’d embrace me, tightly. “Let’s go baby. It’s already late.” he said with a smile on his lips and eyes. And I like what he called me that time, Babe. My heart really was full of happiness. It’s that time that I felt I’m in heaven. I then stand up while he assisted me and we walked to the park holding hands together and we both smile that time. I know it’s already late in the afternoon, but I thought that it was dawn. And the sun is shining. I feel like I don’t want to let that day end that time. I’m very happy.

When we are 2 blocks away from our house, because that time he brought with him his car, he then stop the car and face me. I then embrace him and he said, “I love you. I don’t want to let you go but I know, we both knew, that I still have to.” “But keep always remember that I do love you Miyaki. I always will.” he added. “I love you too Kezuka. I’m really happy today because of the things you said. I really Am.”, I said. “Thank you Kezuka. I thought I only am the one who felt It.”, I said. “No, its two way baby. I’m just not blunt about it because you will feel you’re so beautiful, beautiful than anybody else.” he said afterwards he laughed while he’d let me go. “Oh! Is that what you think?” I said. And then I pinched his side.“Ouch! That hurts.”, he said while laughing. “Kidding aside baby, I just wanted to keep it first.” he said. He then embraces me and we bade goodbye to each other.

The next day, I then called Usui and told him that we need to meet because I’ll tell him what my answer with his ultimatum is earlier. When he arrives at the meeting place we have, that is the restaurant that we usually visit during our dates, he then said, “Let’s eat first. I’m really hungry. He then ordered our food and we ate. When we already finished our main course he then said, “We are to eat first our dessert before you’ll tell me what your decision is.”I just let him handle all the things that time when we all finished everything. He then said, “Okay, I’m ready Miyaki for your answer.” I then told him, “I will marry you. I’ll follow what our parents set for us to do. I’ll be your wife, a good wife, and mothers to your offspring.” I said straight to his face.And then I said, “I’m already done with my objective today. May I excuse myself?”He then nods his head and then I stand up and took my way out of the restaurant.

When I’m already in my car, I then poured out my tears that were already there when I’m taking my way out, crying because I can’t do anything with what I have with my future. That I already said my decision, and I know I need to choose such thing because my parent needs it too, badly. Yes, I am in love but not with Usui, but with Kezuka. “What will happen with the feelings we have with each other?” I asked myself. I really love Kezuka but my fate leads me to Usui. I spent almost one hour inside my car crying hard with the fate that I have. The good thing there is that people around me can’t see me crying ‘cause of my tinted car. When I’m already finish and afraid that Usui will see me still there within the vicinity, I then drove off and went home. There in my room continue and spent my time crying bitterly.

Three months passed since the day that everything went to what we used to do. That is all the time I’m with Usui because that’s what I needed to do even I still long to be with Kezuka, it’s unfair for him if I do that. I don’t even have communications with him and the worst thing to that is I can’t and didn’t see him everywhere in the school. Been trying to locate and determine what’s the reason behind but I can’t find any.

One day when I was in the canteen with my circle of friends I overheard a group of girls talking about Kezuka. That triggered me to be attentive to them and listen to what they’re talking. One of the girl said, “Girls, Is it true that Kezuka had a leukemia?” and one of them answered, “Yes girl. I heard it from my friend who is one of the circles of friends of Kezuka. And if am not mistaken, he’s now in a hospital, I guess… that is Shisuken Hospital.” “Are you sure with that?” some of the girls already paid attention to the topic of the two girls. “Oh! That’s horrible then.” Zuni, whom I’ve known because she’s one of my classmate in one of my subject “Don’t you know that I have a crush on him. He’s so cute and a good boy.” She added. “Yeah, me too. How is he right now? One of the girls beside Zuni asked. “He’s still there I guess, because from one of his friend said he’s body is not already responding to any chemotherapy already.” “Oh!” Because of that conversation of those girls I then immediately excuse myself with my friends. I never waited for their answer because I really need to know what the real story about it is. I’m rushing to leave the school that even Usui’s presences when I met him on the lobby I never recognize. The only objective that I have that time is to get where Kezuka is and determine if he’s okay or not. When I’m already outside of the school’s gate I then immediately call for a taxi and told the driver that we’re going at Shisuken Hospital. On my way I heard my phone ringing and seen that Usui is calling. I answered and asked why. He then said, “Where are you going? I met you at the lobby earlier you never even acknowledge me even a glance. Where are you going? It’s not yet time to leave the school and you still have one subject left right?” “Oh1 I’m sorry Usui. I’m on my way right now to the hospital.” I said. “Why are you going there?” he asked. “I want to check if Kezuka is there and if his seek and if his alright. Want to ask him if the rumor about him having leukemia is wrong.” I answered him while I’m choking and my tears are already falling down my cheeks.” I hope you’ll understand why I need to visit him. Why I need to know if he’s okay, Am I right Usui?” I asked. There’s a long silence from his line and then he said, “Okay, I’ll follow you there.” “Thank you Usui. Thank you.” I said and I turned off the phone.

The cab arrived at the lobby of the hospital and I immediately asked from the information office where and what room is Kezuka were confined. They then told me its room number 15D. And no more a do, I run to the room while my tears were falling. I prayed to God that things must be okay. That he only have a minor illness. I did ask that while running. When I’m already in front of the room, I then saw through the mirrors Kezuka and his family there inside watching Kezuka. I then knock and open the door. When the mother of Kezuka recognizes me, she then embrace me then led me to come closer to Kezuka. After that, one by one they excuse themselves for the two of us, Kezuka and I will have time to talk. When every one of them leaves, there is a long silence inside of the room. It’s as if nobody wants to talk between us. I just watched him while my tears fall. He then grabs my hands slowly and told me, “Miyaki, come closer please.” And I move closer. Get closer and then I embrace him and cry over his shoulder. He just pats my back comforting me while I kept crying bitterly. Minutes pass and I tried to stop my tears and asked him in between sobs “Why did you not inform me of this? When was this started?” I asked while looking at his pale face. “Actually it started last year. I kept it from you so you won’t be worried.” He answered. “And I know that you have lots of problem already with Usui, and I don’t want to add burdens to you. I just want you to be happy with me Miyaki. Because every time I saw you smiling it’s as if I’m fulfilled already.” He added while holding my hands. At that time I’m still crying. “Remember baby, even if I’m not with you, I love you. I love you very much.”, I then hug him. He then took my chin then looks at me and said, “Stop crying baby. You’re not that beautiful already because you keep on crying.” He then smile and we look at each other eyes then slowly he took my lips and we kissed.

At that time, Usui is waiting outside. Saw what was going on. And when I go out from the room after waiting for Kezuka to rest and sleep, I then saw him looking at me and said, “Its okay Miyaki. I understand the situation. And if I don’t I’ll try and will try my best to understand everything. But I just want to ask you again, you’ll keep your statement right, to marry me?” He looked at my eyes and waited for the answer. I then answered “whatever I said to you Usui, I won’t take it back. And I will do it.” He smiled. “Thank you and it’s very kind of you in understanding it.” “It’s okay with me Miyaki, That’s how I love you” he said while smiling. “Are we to go home now?” he asked. “Yes.” I answered. Then I asked permission from the parents of Kezuka and told them that I’ll return to visit Kezuka. We bade goodbye and off we go.

While we’re already taking the road going home, “Usui, I would like to inform you that I’ll always visit Kezuka. Is it okay with you? Because if it’s not, I’m sorry but I will still visit.” He is quiet for a long time and said, “As I’ve said earlier it’s okay with me but the only thing I wanted is that when you visit I’ll go with you. Is it okay with you?” After that, I am then the one who took time to answer. “I told you that because I just want to help you, give you a ride and to make you safe as well. You can’t be able to drive your car when you are crying, right?”he added. “Yeah, your right” I said while nodding my head. “Thank you Usui for thinking of my safety”. He then glance at me and smile. Then silence filled the car as we are taking the road to my house. Starting that day I keep visiting Kezuka, during vacant time and before I go home, and Usui is with me always. But he never took the time to get inside Kezuka’s room for delicacy sake.

One day, “Can we buy first fruits before we visit Kezuka?”, I asked Usui. We then went to a supermarket to buy fresh fruits for Kezuka. And when we’re buying fruits, Usui picked mango but I said, “Not that Usui. He loves eating melon.” Usui only smile and asked the vendor of the price of the mango and we bought some for Kezuka. We then buy takeout food on a restaurant that we used to dine for the family of Kezuka and for us.

While we’re on our way to the hospital, my phone rang with the song:

~Heaven can’t wait up higher in the sky. It’s you and I, Heaven

And can’t wait deep down in your eyes, I’m yours tonight. 

Lay your heart next to mine… I feel so alive…~

It’s Kezuka’s number and I picked it up. “Hi baby, the voice at the other side answered.” And I answered, “Oh! Kezuka! How are you? We’re on our way going there to you. We brought lots of food”, “Oh! Thank you baby. I just call to tell you how much I love you and missed you.” he said. And I said” Wait!” and I told Usui, “can we stop for a while, I need space? Just for a while.” And Usui also gave me the favor. When the car stopped, I then moved out of the car and closed it for privacy. “Hello love, are you still there?”I asked Kezuka. “Yes baby. I missed you already.” He said. “I missed you too love and I love you very much.”I answered. And I heard a deep breath on the other line and Kezuka said in sincere voice, “Miyaki, When I’m gone you always remember that I’m still with you, in your heart. I’ll always there to guide you. If I’m gone you need to move on with your life… with Usui. I know that he’ll take good care of you. Always remember that I love you… I love you Miyaki… I love you baby.” And the phone went dead. “Hello… Kezuka? Hello!” Huh! Why did he turn off the phone. I then open the door and sit inside the passengers seat and said to Usui, “let’s go.” And I smiled to him thankful for the understanding he’s giving.

We then took again the way going to the hospital. We then parked the car and took the path going to Kezuka’s room. While we’re 20 steps away from the room of Kezuka, we then saw doctors and nurse running going inside Kezuka’s room. My heart beat fast. Usui and I looked at each other and I then run to reach Kezuka’s room. Usui is following me. I then get inside the room where I saw Kezuka’s parents crying as well as his brothers and sisters. I then turn my eyes to the bed where Kazuke lay and saw nurses and doctors reviving him back to life. They’d tried their best to revive him but the cardiac monitor displayed a flat line. The doctors then look at us and bowed his head. It’s a cue for us that Kezuka is gone. His family went to his body and mourns. You can hear cries in the room. And I felt the hands of Usui on my shoulder comforting me. I didn’t move. I don’t know what to do. I didn’t cry yet that time. My mind couldn’t process what had happened or I don’t want my mind to accept the reality that Kezuka’s gone. He’s gone.. Gone? Gone. HE’S GONE.

The family of Kezuka looked at me at that moment. Emphasizing with what I are infront of me. Usui then hold me on my shoulders and walked me closer to where Kezuka is. I looked at Kezuka’s face. He’s as if smiling. I’m thinking and imagining he’s just resting. And waiting for me there that when I’ll kiss his forehead he’ll open his eyes and look at me smiling. I’m thinking… Thinking that he will still asked me that I’ll feed him with the sweet melon I brought with him today… He’s gone. My mind interrupted. He’s gone.

My tears then started to fall from my eyes and my hands slowly touched his cheeks, he’s nose, it’s as if my hands wanted to memorize the curves, the face that he had. I then kissed his lips that is starting to get cold and after that I hug him tightly… and then whispered to his eyes, “I’m here already love. I’m already here. I brought you your favorite melon. I picked it up just for you”. Then my tears starting to well up. “I love you Kezuka. I love you!” And I cried hard after that, that it makes my shoulders shake. I took minutes to cry while embracing him. If Usui never took me my shoulder and make me turn to him then embrace me, I wouldn’t maybe think of letting Kezuka off my embrace. I then cried on Usui’s shoulder. I cried hard. He then lead me and take me to sit on the couch and Comfort me there.

That was three years ago and still I’m my tears fall when I remember Kezuka. “Hello Kezuka”, I brought you flowers. I picked this up from my garden. Usui helped me. You know he needs to assist me. I’m now five months pregnant and it’s a boy Kezuka.” I’m smiling while touching my tummy and the baby inside moved. “hehehe, my baby moved love!” I said at tomb of Kezuka. “Oh! I need to go now love. It’s already late and Usui is waiting at the car.” I said. “Goodbye love and I love you “ I added. And I turned and started to walked going to the car where Usui waits. “Oh! Wait!” I turned back and said, “ I just want to inform you that Usui agreed that we will name our son, first son, after you.” “And I want to tell you too that Usui is like you love. He really loves me. And I’m starting to love him also.” I said. It’s proper and right to love him, right.” But then he’s giving me the time that I’ll learn to love him, and he’s starting to be successful in doing so.” I smiled and glanced to Usui’s location. “Just want to inform you Kezuka, At that this will be the last time I’ll visit you. As you said, I need to move on. Thanks for everything. And I love you.”

I then took my way to Usui and when I reached his place I then embrace him. And then look at him and I smiled then said, “Usui…” “Yes honey?” he asked. “I love you.” I said while looking at him. He stopped and looked at me for a long time as if it never registered to his mind. I then took his hand and hold it then said while smiling at him, “Usui, my honey, I love you. Thanks for everything.” Then slowly his eyes became big and his smile is as if it reaches his ears, “Is it true honey?” I then nod my head while smiling at him and still holding his hands. “Yes!”, he exclaimed. “Thank you darling, thank you” as he embrace me tightly but careful with my tummy. “Thank you honey. And I love you too”, he added. Then he kissed me on my lips. We then took the rode and off with our car away from the cemetery.

“I Guess I am A Moron or Just Dumb” (Love me again, please?)

Franzllhaur

She visited our school today. She doesn’t seem to be the Marie I knew. She changed a lot, her height, her cute baby face, and most of all her lovely eyes. “Hey Franzllhaur! Marie wants to see you,” Vergil shouted as he entered the room and saw me gazing at the window. “Are you staring at her?” he asked as he went near me. “No! I was just thinking…” I said as I pretended that I am jotting-down notes. “She missed you,” he teased as he sat in front of me, leaning his chin on his folded arms. “Shut up!” I said as I stood up and walked. “Where are you going?” he asked as he raised his head, following me by his eyes. “To the restroom,” I said as I placed my hands in my pockets.

Marie

There he goes; he just went out of their room. He looks upset. “Hey Marie! Where are you looking at?” Rose asked as she followed the direction where I was looking at. “Oh! Wanna say hi to him?” she asked grinning evilly. “Of course not!” I said as I look at the opposite direction. “Don’t deny it, let’s go,” Rose said as she pushed me heading to Franzllhaur. “Hey w-wait!” I said. “Shut up!” May said as she helped Rose to push me. “Hey! Franzllhaur! ” They said as they pushed me harder and as Franzllhaur turned around I just bumped into his back. “S-sorry,” I said as I covered my mouth, blushing. “M-marie..” he said as he stared at me. “Well, I just want to—say—hi,” I said as I nodded. “Umm, hi too..” he said as he messed up my hair while smiling. “You’ve changed a lot,” he added. “Yeah..you too..” I said as I gave him a smile that surprised him. “Umm, a little,” he said as he released his hands on my head. “So..how’s your love life?” he asked. “Still looking for someone..” I said. “You’re still the same when it comes to love,” he said. “May—” I said but cut off because of the ring on my phone. “Hello?” I said as I picked up the phone. “Marie, are you free? Can you come with me at the mall? Just want to forget the pain I’m feeling right now..” Jerome said in a sad tune. “I’ll go with, just wait for me there, okay?” I said as I left the curios Franzllhaur.

Franzllhaur

“Is she dating?” I asked myself, staring at the walking away Marie. “Hey! Franzllhaur!” Rose said as she and May went near me. “Why didn’t you stop her?” She asked. “Why would I? We’re just friends.. I don’t want to interfere her business,” I said as I started walking. “Cause she still love you, she don’t want to lose someone like you, she went to check if your okay after your break up with Angelika, ” May added but I acted like I didn’t heard it and went to the restroom.

—>In the Restroom<—

“MORON!” I shouted facing the mirror, seeing my reflection. (FLASHBACK TO MARIE’S CONFESSION, 2 YEARS AGO: GRADUATION DAY) “I-I-I love y-you, Franzllhaur, I don’t know why, but when I’m with you I feel so happy and comfortable that it seems like you’re my world,” Marie said as she grabbed the back of my shirt. “G-gome, Marie, I don’t want to hurt you but I already have someone that I love, ” I said.“Umm, I understand..I don’t expect anything..cause I know we’re just friends right, thanks for everything, until the day we’ll see again, sayonara..” Marie said as she walked away. (END OF FLASHBACK). “Why can’t I tell you I LOVE YOU? That you’re the only girl that made me smile, comforts me and most of all the girl that loved me even though I had hurt you..” I told myself. (FLASHBACK FARNZLLAHAUR CONFESSION THAT JUST FAILED). “She rejected me..” I said while crying. “Why am I crying? Boys don’t cry,” I said as I wiped my tears. “Even adults cry from a broken heart, ” Marie said as she slowly hugged me. “So…just cry it on, I’ll be here for you,” She added as she hugged me tighter. (END OF FLASHBACK). “I love you Marie..so just come back to me..” I told myself.

—>2 weeks after that day<—

Marie

(Phone ringing). “Sis! Your phone’s ringing!” I shouted while my eldest sister is taking a bath. “It’s KUYA TOOT!” IK teased as I tied my hair. “Tch. Going out again? With whom?” She asked as she went out of the bathroom. “Not gonna tell you..janah,” I said as I left the house.

—>At the Mall<—

“He’s one hour late, does he still plan to come?” I told myself. “Marie-chan!” a voice approaching in front of me shouted. “J-Jerome-kun?!” I said as I turned to him as he hugged me. “W-What’s wrong?” I asked as he released his hug and hold my arms. Then he started talking. “Eh? Franzllhaur-kun, where are you going?” a girl said (their 5 meters away from our side). “Franzllhaur-kun?” I told myself as I faced to the girl and saw the guy walking away. “Marie? Something wrong?” Jerome asked as he looked at the direction I was looking. “Nothing, I just need to go to the restroom right now, I’ll be back,” I said I walked while nodding, heading to the restroom.

—>Restroom<—

“Haah…Jerome is kinda typical, last week he was so upset but now..it seems like he’s back in life..” I told myself as I put some powder on my face. “But it made me happy for him…” I added as I went outside of the Girl’s Restroom.  As I stepped out of the Restroom, I saw Franzllhaur approaching. “Franzllhaur-kun?” I said as we looked at each other. “M-marie-chan, what are you doing here?” he asked with his hands in his pockets. “Just roaming around, what about you?” I said. “Same with you..” he said. “By the way, I have something to give you, the day I visited you guys..” I said while searching for something in my bag. “Marie-chan,” he said as he nods and then slowly grabbed my right wrist and then he pulled me closer to him and hugged me tight. “F-franzllhaur-kun?” I said. “Sorry,” he said as he hugged me tighter. “Sorry if I didn’t tell you what I really feel about you,” he added. “What do you mean?” I asked innocently. “I don’t want to lose a girl like you..The girl who made me smile, made me feel how to be loved and most of all, the girl that loved me for who I am,” he said as tears started to fall on my face. “Moron, ” I said as I slowly crumpled his shirt and started crying. Then he slowly released his hug and started staring on the opposite direction. “Dai Ski (I LOVE YOU) Franzllhaur-kun, you moron, you spike head, you dumb, IDIOT!  ” I said as I wiped my tears by my wrists and stared to him with teary eyes. He was surprised as I said those words and then he cornered me.

Franzllhaur

I guess I just heard the words I want to hear. As she said those things that surprised me, I cornered her on the wall beside the Restroom. “Do you still love me?” I asked her as I cupped her chin and raised it to face me. “Why will I say I LOVE YOU if I don’t?” she said looking at the opposite direction. “Then, I’ll tell you how I really feel about you, ” I whispered to her ears and I slowly touch her pink lips, and then we kissed. I guess I am just a moron or just reckless, but when I touch her lips and kissed her, it made me happy. Cause I just kissed the girl I truly love.

Franzllhaur  Yagami